a daughter of the KING: SCABS

Saturday, January 24, 2009

SCABS

Found this from a few years back...

SCABS

Ok so there I was, sitting at the computer…writing a letter to an old friend about how I'm still struggling with unforgiveness and letting go of past hurts & pains. I was relating it to a sore that won't heal because it keeps getting scratched and picked at. When all of a sudden…OUCH…I noticed I was bleeding…yup, I didn't realize that I had scratched a scab and pulled it off…it was a God moment…

I used to think that it was everyone else keeping my emotional wounds from healing…and maybe they did play a little part in that when we were young kids…but I just now realized that I'm actually the one who isn't allowing it to heal completely. Each time it's almost healed I go back and pick-at it until the scab comes off and the wound is exposed again…thereby causing it to bleed all over again. Yes, as we all know, pain is then felt and the wound has to go through the WHOLE healing process all over again. The wound is disinfected/cleaned out and the band-aid put on for a while to stop the bleeding. Over time, a scab is formed as the sore begins to dry up and heal when all of a sudden we unknowingly scratch (or sometimes purposely) pick at the scab…until little by little u realize that now it's back to step 1 again.

Sound familiar? Ok now, you better stop looking at me that way. I'm pretty sure that I'm not the only one in the world who has ever picked at a scab before…yeah, you best jog that memory of yours so I know who I'm talking to. Hehe. Ok, now that we're all on the same page…I can begin…J

I always blamed my wrong actions & shortcomings on how my sisters or others had hurt me in the past...in fact I just did it again tonight at the dinner table…sad huh? L

SCABS...It's those moments when we choose to let our minds recall all the things that someone might have done to us or the times that they hurt us really bad or offended us. SCABS...It's when we re-live the memory of the pain.

The challenge: Choose to let go of the past & allow God to complete the healing process.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...: I heard the analogy of the scab used in connection to emotional healing but never with the added element of the part the individual may play (picking the scab). This is definitely food for thought.; 10:42 PM
hannah leah said...: That is how i originally heard it too. However, as the years went on, and i still hadn't emotionally healed, I realized that I had used it as an excuse to not have to forgive. (until i saw that it was i who was hurting myself); 4:12 PM

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---America to return her heart to God
---peace in Israel through Jesus Christ the Messiah
---our current president and the upcoming elections
----healing for all whose hearts are hurting. True LOVE, peace & comfort to anyone who might feel unloved, abandoned, or lonely. Let them know & see that they are a jewel...a treasure
----blessings, deeper faith, wisdom, guidance, favor, protection, etc for my parents, siblings, grandparents, extended family members, relatives, friends, ect
----financial blessing & wisdom for those who are really struggling
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----restoration & strenthening of marriages: T&husband, C&wife, L&husband, N&husband, L&wife, M's&wife, S&husband, T&husband. K&husband, P&husband, D&husband, N&husband, S&husband, M&husband, H&husband
----those who are with child. for healthy babies. and thay they would grow in the admonitions of the Lord & that they would come to know Jesus as their Savior and Lord at a young age
----chain to be broken off those entagled & bound in sin. that they would be set free, in the name of Jesus, by the power of the Holy Spirit, and no longer choose to be enslaved to sin
----the Gospel to spread among those serving their country
----my brothers and sisters in the Body of Christ all around the world
----my Church families (Fellowship of Believers & Dagupan Christian Center) and the leadership
----the underground Church
----Godly wisdom, guidance, & councel for all those who are in leadership...churches, nations, ministries, schools, businesses, etc. That they would choose to walk in INTEGRITY & that GOD would impress upon their heart a desire to please HIM & that HE would give them the strength to stand on the Truth (even if it's hard)
----salvation of my family, friends, relatives, classmates(past, present, & future), employer & coemployees (past, present, & furure), patients where I work, church-goers who have no relationship yet with the Lord, & every single person the Lord allows to cross my path & i get to meet
----physical healing for those who are sick
----myself...stronger faith, more intimate relationship w/ the Lord, guidance, the fullness & empowerment of the Holy Spirit to obey. fruits of the Spirit, growth & maturity in the Lord, more passion & compassion for the lost, boldness to speak the Truth in love, more understanding, that i would use my talents & giftings to bring Glory to God, instaed of myself. That i would humble myself. That my pride would no longer be a stronghold. purity of mind, heart, & body. that i would choose to let go of things holding me back from pressing in to the Lord. That i would learn to trust in HIM completely.